“Man wants to make certain about the future, about tommorow–which cannot be done. Let it sink as deeply in your heart as possible, it cannot be done. Don’t waste your present moment trying to make the future certain…One can do only one thing: Be alert and wait.”
– Osho, Awareness: The Key to Living in Balance
Today was the last day our residency cards could arrive in time for us to take our flight back to the U.S. tomorrow. The mail was delivered but not our cards. So here we stay. I went for a walk in the park in the unseasonably hot day. I walked slowly in the shade thinking about how life is strange sometimes, how plans get sidetracked and how there’s nothing to do but surrender to it all.
I sat on a rock and watched the wild roosters and chickens trying to stay cool by digging down into the cool earth. I gave myself the pleasure of feeling sorry for myself for a moment until a bird high up in the pine tree pooped on me. I let out such a loud hoot of laughter I startled the chickens and the roosters let out cries of protest. Are you kidding me? I don’t even get to say ‘woe is me’ for one second? Nope, I guess not.
I can’t rebook our flight for a later date because I have no idea if the cards will come tomorrow (they better not!), or a month from now. So we lose our tickets…but we get to live in Portugal.
Who will I meet because I stayed?
What will I write that I wouldn’t have written?
Where will I go that I’m meant to be?
I surrender and allow things to unfold as they should.
I let go of the illusion of control.
I trust this new plan is for my highest good.
I practice patience.
I love what is.
All is well.
(But I still wish those residency cards had come today and a bird hadn’t pooped on me!)